..*mandiie<3

i dunno why im in loveeeee wit this song lyric

it's currently my myspace song btw<3

"i rather spend my time wasting time wit u"

..like how heart..right???

ok u can judge me lol

so i no i always joke and say i have stalkers..which i have...but nuttin compares to the level of insanity i witnesses saturday...im not sure why im writing bout it in here...i just kinda wanted to forget the whole thing..even though that is a little hard to do...but anyway...if u read my previous entry then u no i wasnt suppose to be in work on saturday and this ordeal coulda all been prevented...but my life cant be simple and uncomplicated..ok so earlier in the week this guy called my mom in work..he needed to be transferred over to some other guy who works in our building and yanno sometimes u get to talkin to customers on the phone...so this guy is like tellin my mother his life history blah blah blah..and how he's apparently flithy rich and was wonderin if my mother knew of anyone he could be hooked up with...which is kinda creepy..u call a business and ask a stranger to hook u up....but my mother was like..not really...ur 40 which is too old for my daughter...so he was like o0o yea...ur right...but started askin questions bout me...i guess he seemed nice so my mother willingly answered his questions bout me...i guess she mentioned that i also worked there...

so im at work saturday...suprisingly answering calls when some guy is like "this must be amanda"...so im like "....umm..yea who's this"...so he told me his name and life story and i remembered my mother telling me bout this weirdo guy who called her and wanted to get hooked up wit me...now i cant get him off the phone..he just wont stop talkin...so he's sittin there askin me out and im like "no..ur too old for me..plus im not into dating one person"....and the psycho is like "no..dont say that"...so i ended the convo short wit "listen..im really busy i cant talk right now"..and i hung up...just by talkin to this guy u could tell he wasnt all there..just talkin to him made me uncomfortable....so the day went on..a couple hours later the security guard at the front desk calls me and says "amanda...this guy robert is up here demanding to see u"...yes....the guy i talked to on the phone showed up at my work...not only that...when he called back for me at work and the operator across the st picked up...he told her how we were good friends and that he didnt wanna bother me at work...could he get my home #...and she gave it to him!!!!....so im sittin here shakin on the phone wit the security guard and im like "no..i have no idea who this man is...he's been callin me all morning...dont let down here"....apparently he must of put up this huge fight and caused a scene because now everyone in work knows bout it...but after the guard refused to let him down into the offices...he calls me back and is like..."tell him to let me see u..i wanna see u"....so at this point im literally on the verge of tears im so scared....and since he was attending the flyers game that afternoon he was gonna be in the building...so i hang up the phone and busy out my lines....no lie...i really did go in the bathroom and cry...that has to be one of the scariest moments of my life...the security guard who stopped him came down to talk to me and was tellin me how crazy the guy looked and that he knew something wasnt right....so they prob all think i led this crazy nut on...but yea...i truly did have a crazy ass stalker

o0o and he called my house and left all these messages..even after my mother warned him that if he ever called me again she'd contact the police....i couldnt even listen to the messages...i just deleted them...yanno when ur just so sickened by something that u dont even wanna hear it...thats how i felt...i was so creeped out by the thought of this guy that i literally couldnt hear him talk or i woulda start cryin

o0o well...figured i should just write this down...warn everyone not to talk to creepy strangers

hearttttttttt snow days<333

the best however hadda be callin the lasalle weather hotline

::dean of lasalle sounds like the world is coming to an end::
"all day classes are ::long somber sigh:: cancelled" lololololol<3333...holla

yet..my snow day was sadly clouded over....u see my lj readers...i have a painful illness..which could become very severe...so it started wednesday night when i woke up in tremendous pain..the source of the pain...my mouth ( i no big shock there....wtf wit my trailor park mouth)...so i figure its prob my wisdom teeth growin in...maybe there's not enough room for them...which is tear...but easy to fix...i'd have to have them extracted blah blah blah....so i go to the dentist...and the dirty old greezeball enrico verico (yes thats his real name)...is like "bella..its not ur teeth...its ur jaw"....so im like "wtf?".....yea...apparently due to stress...i clench my jaw really tightly at night which has created muscle spasms in my face....but the best is....i got no pain pills....he's like here ::throws motrin at me::....so i really am gonna go to the doctors and be "cat on shirt" in hopes of gettin some kinda seditives or painkillers....its horrible...i really do just break out into tears the pain gets so bad...my jaw actually starts shakin...the pain runs from one ear down around my chin up to the other ear....i dunno what to do...i cant even concentrate ::laughs that i have exams next week::...its like...how do u expect me not to be stressed when they may have to cut and re-hinge my jaw lololol...like seriously??....o0o but the piss side is....i cant chew anything...like not even soup...so ill be like 60lbs by xmas...sigh the body...sigh sigh sigh it to hell!!!!

( h0t aSs s0nG )

o0o i forgot to mention i was watchin "confessions of a teenage drama queen" earlier....and heart the lohan lol....i'll admit i do look like her in that movie...well when my hair was light i did at least...at one point i felt i had a twin<3333

yea..thats bout it..lol

o0o and hearrrrrt sean paul's new song...even though its bout drugs....lololol

lolol...i have nuttin to update bout...i just wanted to sing the song "september" by earth, wind, and fire lol <3333

o0o...and people need lives....seriously

really go find urself a life...all of u

yea...i dont update because...o0o i dont have a life...lol...sighh

so..whats new??? ::long silence::

well...i joined the tannin salon...and seriously dont see myself leavin my house to go again anytime soon lololol <333 wastin money...i seriously was like...all dressed and ready to go...but then i just sat down..and was like.."no...no..i just cant" lolololol <3333 hearrrrrrrrrt bein lazy.....and hearrrrrrrrrt bein sooooo outta shape too ::me and frank struggle back from the comm center::
me: "...lolol....why is no1 around us havin a problem?"
::sees everyone else walkin perfect and healthy up the hill::

lolol..it really is piss....BUT...i somehow lost 5lbs in a week <3333 goin back to school...omg...did...did i just say heart school...kill me...but yea....last week i got on the scale and i was...too much to even say...but i was bored in the bathroom..so i was like ::checks weight::...and yea...5lbs lighter...and thats wit my period still hangin round...which means i could actually be 5-10lbs lighter then its actually sayin....fuckin bloat and water weight gain associated wit periods..but at least im not pregnant ::thanks god everyday for that::...so nowwww..that 5lbs is off...i feel all movtiated to be terribly anorexic again<333...they were good..skinny times....soo i wanna lose like...15 more lbs...and ill be extremely happy..but...its prob gonna be hard as shit...i mean..granted i have been whalin it up...so if i start to cut out fattening shit the weight will most likely drop pretty fast...but...that will prob only work for another 5 lbs...to lose the last 10..i am seriously gonna need to turn into a diet nazi...


lol...i no u all dont care bout my fat ass...so ill stop ramblin....hopefully ill have something worth updatin bout soon..byeeeeeeeeeeee

( l0nG aSs sUrvEy )

........why

why r the black eyed peas allowed to make music...

this song made me seriously stop and pray to god that i go deaf..if this is gonna be the next big hit...

please..black eyed peas...u inter-racial freaks....just stop...and kill urselfs....ty

( ...why is this allowed to be a song )

::cries uncontrollably::

ben affleck got married yesturday...im still tryin to accept this....

....but i cant

::goes on cryin and plottin jennifer garner's death::

::cries like a girly asshole::

so last nite i watched "the way we were"....seriously one of the best movies ever...it was so real thats why i loved it...because sometimes even though people really love eachother..they just cant seem to get it together..as sad as it is...life isnt a fairy tale

whats even sadder is that i've had the desire to watch this movie since i saw the episode of sex & the city were they mention it lol <333

::after big leaves carrie for natasha::
carrie (to big): "your girl is lovely hubble"
big: "i don't get it"
carrie: "and ya never did"

<333...so if u havent seen it...u need to...ty

::goes on cryin::

i no this song is like 5 years old...but i was watchin pearl habor (heart ben affleck)...and "there u'll be" by faith hill came on..and yea ::cries like an asshole::.....that song is soooooooooooooooo heart and touching.....who knew i had feelings<3333...so yea...i needed to share that....ty

wow....so i was reading ( i no such a shocking effort made by me) the book "he's just not that into u"...yea...hold on while i go kill myself...that has to be the meanest most blatantly harsh thing i ever read...but entirely true..its amazing some of the lies u'll let urself believe in order to feel better bout certain situations...however, lyin may ease the pain in the short run...but it doesnt help the long term truth of the situation...i really think this should be a requirement for girls to read before they get involved wit any guy...its mean...but rather a book let u no that he's not that into u then actually havin the guy himself say it..

my new love is now my livejournal wallpaper<33333333 omg he'd get it<333333

lolololol....this is why im anti-social at lasalle...so since frank felt the need to leave me at 1.....even after i waited for him sooooooo many times lol...j/p..this girl in my history class comes in and starts talkin to me...so she asks if she can sit down...as ignorant as am i..and as much as i wanted to say no...i allowed it cuz im merfciful lolol...so we r talkin for awhile...makin fun of people in r class...and chaz green<333 lol...when all of a sudden she goes "i just have to come out and say it...i have a problem wit white people"...when she herself is white...i was like..."o0o...right" ::checks skin color::..then she goes on to tell me how her 1st sexual experience was wit some black guy she meet at chrome 2 years ago..and how they still talk..she refers to him as her "situation"...and that one day when she was havin sex wit him...his brother walked in and tried to have a 3some wit them..she's like "yea he took his dick out and put it in my face"....and i sat there...in silence...lol...this is like the 1st time i talked to her too...im like..."why do people feel they can tell me everything..or assume i care to no" lolololol <333 lasalle lolololol...but then she's like "omg...u might just be funnier then me...i love u"...its like...u realize im white though right?? lol...o0o people..<33

what else??..yesturday was the last day of class...fuckin finals monday ::cries::...im failin econ...why even bother stressin...i should start studyin tonight...omg..im such a dork...i cant wait for summer...omg...u have no idea..hearrrrt bein a bum for 3 months<33333

o0o..and may i just say that..lol...wow i get over people fast...ty...i pass my feelings like i pass gas...lolololololol...im never finding happiness lolololololololololol

omg..its soooo fuckin busy in work again...i wanna cry....i dont go to work to actually work...wtf?

i just ate 24 peanut chews....im officially on a diet...thanx ::feels so fat...abuses pills::

well hello0o there...

so0o im in school...yea...im really not feelin school anymore...i blame the weather...like i just dont care...i dont show up for classes...i dont do work...i just..dont lolol

i just wanna sleep ::mono:: lolol...

tomorrow i go for my like 90859048908690 root canal lololololol...my mouth is such a trailor park...meh thats what i get for puttin dirty things in it lol

i wanna go shoppin, join the tannin salon, and get my nails done again...yea i dunno where im gettin those funds cuz i refuse to work more then 1 day a week lolol...i have an addiction to bebe...i feel like maria...i seriously wanna go back and buy everything in there...there clothes r soooo fuckin hot...maybe ill go one day this week...ill see what i got planned...i have like 9890489048 fuckin tests..includin economics..which...u guessed it...im failin...fuckin fag teacher....someone needs to ram him in the ass ::straps it on::..im sorry...but i need to pass lol

what else is there?...o0o nuttin cuz my life is boring...o0o ok...well then...let me go..i got a class in a half hour...i hope i win another cigar lolololol.....that was soooo the highlight of my life...::cherishes::

byeeeeeeeeeeee<33333333

0ok so i no this is really mean now that the popes dead(we're all gonna die..the end is here) lol...but this was before i was aware of his passin...he's in heaven now anyway...my insults aint effectin him...

lady on phone: "is the andrea bocelli concert cancelled tomorrow"
me: "no..on as scheduled at 7:30..the doors will open at 6:30"
lady: "but he's from italy"
me: "umm..0ok..most opera singers r"
lady: "but what about the pope and all?"
me: "o0o..what?..did he finally die?
::lady is shocked at my heart-less-ness::

lololol....and my mothers right next to me pissin...so i turn to her and go
"whats the difference...andrea bocelli's blind..he cant even see if the pope's dead body"

rosie: "were goin to hell...not only r we makin fun of the blind..we're makin fun of a dead pope"
me: "who was it yesturday that pulled an april fools joke on me bout the pope bein dead?..o0o..o0o that was u"
rosie: "so"
me: "well ur goin to hell first..u joked bout it longer" ::laugh at prayer service on cnn::

::someone else asks bout pope::
lady: "is the concert cancelled cuz of the pope's death"
rosie: "no..jewish people own this building.." ::hangs up::
me: "wtf does that have to do wit anything lolololol"

lolol...why this is allowed to show up in my aol mail box ill never no...but im sittin here in workin repeatin the words bullshit and omg kill urself horoscopes.com over and over as i read it so pleaseeeeee allow me to share wit u what is apparently in store for me this april...fuckin load of shittttttt lololololol

Monthly Romantic
April
If you encounter that old bugaboo -- yep, romantic frustration -- on the 5th and 6th, don't fret too much. Instead, ask yourself exactly what it is that is frustrating you. Then ask yourself whether or not there might be just a tiny part of you that is actually seeking out that frustrating thing. Then ask yourself if maybe part of you is still choosing 'frustration' over 'emotional intimacy.' Emotional intimacy can be scary! All this thinking should really sweep the decks of your romantic subconscious, and when a sparkling, sensuous, super-fantastic romantic opportunity comes your way on the 7th, you'll be in ship-shape and ready to get involved. Smooches to you! The 8th and 9th bring more of the same -- this could be a real high-seas romance! Let yourself go a little bit. You can get back to that analysis of your own hidden defenses later. On the 12th and 13th -- and again the 17th and 18th -- you should be wining, dining, stargazing and telling them they are amazing.

lololol..i laugh

s0..god hates me....thanx